Caitlin M’s Story
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So, long story short...
Caitlin M made the mistake of
falling in love with a straight girl that never wanted to hurt me but broke my heart in the process.
My Advice to You is
never lie and keep an open mind when someone you know well tells you that they are in love with you.
Here's the whole story
I fell in love with my ex-coach.
She is 19 and I am 15.
People tell me that I am too young to be in love.
She tells me that she doesn't want to break my heart or hurt me when she talks about the guy she is in love with.
I tell her that it doesn't matter to me. Of course it will hurt but everyone in life will hurt you, you just have to pick the ones worth the pain and she's worth the pain. And that I am her friend before I am anything else.
It's been a month since we stopped talking.
My heart is broken and my friends and family tell me that it's not a broken heart, I'm just lonely.
My dad tells me that I should have never fallen in love with a woman.
My friend tells me that because I am gay, God will hate for the rest of my life and prevent from falling in love again.
My best friend for life tells me that I need to get over her because I deserve so much better (but doesn't everyone say that?)
I don't know how to move or stop my heart from breaking.
I am in love with her.
Can't people just let me feel my own feelings and think my own thoughts?
I was never raised to deal with a broken heart.
I was never raised to know about relationships. My parents never told me about sex, my cousin did and I think that's why I had sex so young.
I think that I have fucked my life up so much that I can't handle that I have fallen in love with the best person for me and I let her run away.
I don't know how to move on, how to stop being depressed. How to stop loving Tiffany.
Can anyone help me????
Please????
I can't live this way anymore.
Comments (3)
Alright listen up kiddo, im not much older then you, I am only 17 But you got a tough cookie, the fact is you can be in love, whenver. I had to login to this stupid thing, and help you out, because I feel for you. You will stop trust me, one day you will look back at this all and laugh Nobody can help you because you need to start fresh and not let anything destroy you dont listen to your little punk ass friends that say its wrong to be gay cause its not, its not wrong to be anything that you feel you are Tell em I said to take a hike Anyway if you would like to continue this convo I got an email address, just mention who you are somewhere in the message guccibelt@gmail.com Good Luck
Look Caitlin, a broken heart will heal in time, take it form me, I watched a guy that I liked oh so much fall in love with my best friend, and now, this girl that I hav a crush on (she's BI, like me) dating this guy that doesn't deserve her, and only dating her to make his X jealous. And what hutrs the most is that no one knows I'm BI, and I wanna keep it this way for personal reasons...
What you can do is wish her the bst of luck, and don't listen to anyone, I know that people care about you, and want what's bst for you, and they are trying to protect you but for once, liten to your heart, listen to your brain lock you room door, do some meditation, seek for help within.
And sooner or later, you will get over this, and you will find a new girl, or maybe a guy (you never know), that feels the same about you.
It feels impossible. I agree with the "give it time" part. Find new friends, ones who show you what's great about you and bring out your very best. Get to know yourself more, love yourself more. Feel happy for her, if you truly love her, and let her go, knowing she's living a good life. If she was your best friend, she would want the same. Peace.